When times seem bad, the light shines through....

Some say that when the bad times came around, there’s the silver lining around the next corner to counteract the bad. Up until now i believed my silver lining was never going to show its face, for two months i have lived through some of the worse days of my life to date. Some worse than others but on the life scale of my life, they all scored 9. something. Thinking that i have screwed up royally and never been good enough for anything have been the rules that i have had to play by for the months just gone. The threat of losing a very close relative, the all too true threat of losing a close friend and the facing the fact that some friendships are not meant to continue to old age. Losing a friend is all too like being stabbed in the heart, the only problem is that you never die from it, it just stays an open wound until God finds it fit to help you to find a cure. A cure? If someone asked me what the cure to heartache is before the events of the last few months than my answer would be simply. Love and friendship. I find it cures almost everything in time, time being the important factor here. But now, my ideas have been shaken, they have been tested to their limits and i can proudly say that they have held. Although many would say the cure for this particular heartache lies with the one who is the source of the pain, my cure lies with the individual. The individual must be the one who, firstly wants the cure, and secondly be strong enough to except the conditions that follow. I have found it extremely hard to keep to my views and my methods of healing, partly because a rift has developed between those who i would have turned too. I am a firm believer in not adding my problems to those who have too many themselves. If God had not wanted me to work though my problems he would not have given them to me in the first place. Back to my unexpected release and sources of healing. My friends who i would never have thought of going to had i the option. They might not have anything extra special about them on the outside, but the inside id pure gold, the rarest and most valuable anyone could ever find. Their presence has been a stable mooring in a world of shifting tides of emotion, some good and unfortunately some bad. I don’t know what i would have done without them, i might not have been here had it not been for them. My light has shown its face, and the face is the most beautiful of them all. I have been able to focus more on the important aspects to my life, things that have put on hold while i tried to solve everyone else’s problems. And my light has given me a most wonderful gift for my perseverance through these uncertain times. A gift that i had previously missed out on due to unforeseen circumstances. I have no doubt that the work of God is mysterious and challenging at times but the rewards for the hard work are ever so much sweeter after. All i can say is God bless.